When I was about eleven I started a diary “Dear Serenity.” Perhaps I thought starting each entry would ease the bumpy road of adolescence. I have always been a dreamer.
So life is messy. Our childhood blurrs by and suddenly we are dumped on a road to find purpose and deal with bad hair days. As women, we all try to listen to what the experts say but things like motherhood and relationships make us change course and loose our way sometimes.
Motherhood took away a large peice of who I thought I was and replaced it with a deeper peace and sense of destiny. I have gained a better sense of the world but lost some of myself in the process. I used to be a pretty good writer for instance ,but it has taken me eleven years to start this blog. There are always more pressing issues like vacuuming Cheerios out of the couch and grocery shopping for more cereal since the couch has eaten about half a box.
It takes time and experience to learn how to ballance adulthood. I am 38 years old and I am reconnecting with my journal from pre adolescents. My son is turning eleven this year and life has not slowed down but I feel like I finally have a compass or at least a sense of humor.
Don’t get me wrong, sometimes I just can’t handle all the crap and I am suddenly in the mood for a glass of Chardeney and a hot dog. You know it is really a shame that alcohol is so addicting and hot dogs cause cancer. So, lets say a prayer and join the journey together.
The Serenity Prayer
“God grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change;
Courage to change the things I can;
And wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
As it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
If I surrender to His Will;
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life
And supremely happy with Him
Forever and ever in the next.